Sooooooo, it's been a hot minute since I last blogged. Truth be told, I needed a break. Time out.
To Pause Rewind.........
and here I am again.
Refreshed
Invigorated and ready to go!
Again.
To be perfectly honest, it was good for me to step away from everything for a while. If you need time out.
Take it.
Life for me in the last year has been a world wind.
Ups
downs
turn-a-rounds
relocation
separation
divorce
and all that goes with it.
Important, life changing stuff. And so with that being said, I move on. Happy in the knowledge that I emerged like a butterfly from a cocoon. Beautifully and wonderfully molded from the intensity of the struggle.
Lately, I have really been struggling to keep it all together. I am sure you can identify. There is work, home, family life, friendships, studying and maintaining my faith, my sweet little blog and projects for my fashion line...it never stops.
And I keep going.
And going.
Part of me wants to just stop and BREATHE for a while. So I do sometimes.
The old me would have never EVER taken a break but I have learned the hard way that there is no healthy substitute for a good night's rest if you are tired.
What is more important than your health? A dear friend once said to me “It is kinda hard to achieve your dream when you are six feet under or lying on a hospital bed”. It was a very sobering thought, one I never forgot.
Today just like any other day, my to do list is very long. I have made up my mind though that I will get it all done within reason. If one or two things are left for tomorrow, so be it. Today, I will stay calm, carry on and just enjoy being ALIVE.
Back to life, back to reality, back to the here and now.... Remember that popular 90's song by Soul II Soul? Man, that was my jam, ha ha. More than that though, those lyrics describe exactly how I feel right now. You see, last week Thursday my trusty companion, my mac computer, crashed out of the blue. No warning, just died.
Let me tell you I was devastated. Incredulous. Frustrated. All kinds of emotional. After all, I am a Graphic designer and my computer is literally my umbilical cord.
When I finally calmed down enough to think sane thoughts, I took some time off from work to regroup. (A small benefit of being my own boss) Well, my Mac had to be replaced so I ordered one right away and tried to forget how much money I was spending. (By the way that didn't work.) Then, I tried to figure out what to do with myself in the main-time... Since I had ordered my computer, I had days to wait before it arrived.
Let me tell you, the first few days sucked! Royally. I was counting down the day, hours and minutes until my computer arrived. I guess you can say that I was in digital detox......complete with nervous twitches, anxiety and the patience of a junk yard dog. This went on until it occurred to me that when I was on the computer and really busy I always told myself that if I had more time I would complete my unfinished projects, experiment with new recipes, watch some movies I had been meaning to see....and trust me the list of things to do went on. Hello, free time! Let's just say that things changed dramatically after that.
And just when I was really starting to have some fun, my new computer arrived.
I am happy that it is here. I am.....kinda. Lol, back to work I go, yay. And trust me, I have so much to catch up on. Hopefully though, I will remember a valuable lesson I learned from this whole experience. My live, my reality, is not in a box...no matter how useful or tricked out it is. Can I get a Amen!
